Friday, November 07, 2008


How often can you start a post with "Happiness"? But this is how I feel, this was my first thought this morning, and my first smile. The Horoscope was right after all, I just had to share some of my dreams, and they came true. I wanted to write last night, because I was so happy. But then I said, I'd better just enjoy the moment, the feeling, it's better to have this memory in my head, than on a piece of paper or online. I'm happy to say that my instincts were not wrong, that I understood perfectly what was going on, even though I had my share of doubts at the time. But now, it's decided, I will enjoy every single moment of this, savor it to the max, and just live my life like that.
I wish you all happiness, the feeling that fills you up with warmth, the best present ever.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Day dreaming

How can a word, or a touch, or a scent stir up so many emotions in one self? And because it's me we're talking about, of course I start day-dreaming the second it happens. My problem right now is that I have no one to share this with, and my horoscope in The Gazette said I should, maybe some of it might come true. It's funny, but the more I think about it, the more I want it. And the less I can get it out of my head. I always knew I'm easily influenced. This morning I was in a bad mood because I don't have a friend I can share this with. First of all, because everybody (including me) is too busy with their own lifes. And I understand, I really do, my own friends could say the same thing about me. Second of all, this thing in my head is not to be shared with anybody. That's the hardest part. I am like that, I want to share my loves, my misery, my hopes, my dreams. By sharing them, I re-live them somehow. And the joy (or the pain, in this case) doubles. So I guess it's a good thing that I don't have a friend to complain to, as the pain or the void I'm feeling would actually double.
I don't even know what perfume that is. I can find out. Then I can get obssessed about it, and go to the Bay, smell it over and over, take a sample home or something else childish like this.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Testing my theory

I just want to see if it works. Maybe it's not a coincidence that I was listening to Johnny Tash radio show tonight and heard about the messages people leave on the net if someone else caught their eye. Maybe he's listening too, and just like that, out of a strange little coincidence, we get to see each other again. I named him the guy from the bus, because that's all he was for me. So I went on craigslist website tonight and place a missed connection message there too. I'm just gonna let the Universe decide for me. It's out there, you can have it. And if you think it's right for me, well, go ahead, connect us one more time. I can promise it won't be a wasted second chance.
We don't get second chances in life too often, do we? So, when we do get them, why not take full advantage of it.