Saturday, June 30, 2007

It's been a while

I haven't written anything for a while now. Why? Have I been too busy? Have I gone out a lot with friends? Have I worked a lot? Have I read good books that kept me away from my computer? No. Nothing like that at all. I've been watching videos on the internet. Someone told me about a British web site that hosts movies, TV series, cartoons and music videos, so I spent a lot of time doing that. I mean not doing anything at all except watching stuff on the internet.
I was actually thinking about my life before the internet and before owning a personal computer. How could we all live before that? Not being connected to everything at all times? I really don't know.
What's a blog? It's like one's personal diary over the internet, and its only privacy comes from the fact that anyone everywhere across the globe has always access to it. But they just don't access it, so it's private in a very peculiar 21st century-like way.
New things that have happened since my last post? Let's see: I'm going to be moving into a new apartment at the end of July. How do I feel about that? I feel scared, I feel responsible, I feel I made a decision based more on finance than something else. The apartment is not perfect, of course, but for the price I am paying it should be OK. I'm not sure I will be able to host there, the girls will of course love to see it, but I'm afraid they will be disappointed. The funniest thing about it is that there's no sink in the little bathroom, so I will have to wash my hands and brush my teeth in the kitchen sink, which is kind of peculiar, to say the least. And kind of embarrassing when you have guests coming over. We'll see about that.
Other new things: preparation for our little vacation to Romania. 2 weeks in September. I am eager to see the transformations everyone is talking about, especially in my native town of Sibiu, but I am also eager to find out if the people have actually changed or not. And to see if I have changed or not, and to see if I can ever fit back in. I'm making plans of who to visit when I am back there, who to bring presents to, what kind of presents, what presents to bring back from there and to whom here, I think I am starting to be in the vacation mood. And it feels good.
I have a closer connection to Romania now, due to the fact that the calls are so cheap, free even for the first 30 days, so I've been calling a lot of people, lots of times, and it feels like a little trip back home, but this makes it a little harder to come back to the real life here.
If I will ever be forced of choosing (I should have said "when", not "if", cause it's coming) between my these 2 worlds, it'll be the toughest decision to ever make in my entire life. I like the world I live in here. I liked the world I was living in back home in Romania. Neither are perfect, and both have something that the other doesn't. Unfortunately, you can never relocate people. I wish I could live in Romania, and relocate the Canadian system there, along with the open-minded various-cultured people, and some of my friends. And maybe the work environment and work ethics.