21st Century

Choices

I decided that having more than one choice in life is a good thing. I have options now in my life, and this is as good as it gets. I am no longer stuck in just one type of predetermined life. And even if it's scary, it's a good thing. I know, I was never good at making decisions, at choosing what's right for myself. I've kind of talked myself into anything so far. And I always chose the easy way out. Which usually meant letting others choose for myself. But now, with a good friend by my side, I realized that this is the whole reason why I emigrated in the first place: to have more than one option in life. And now I do. Again, be careful what you're wishing for, cause it just might come true. But having more than one option is a beautiful thing. It makes you feel free, it makes you think that you are in control of your life. And for me this is a first. I am no longer a leaf dancing in the wind, I am no longer a flower floating on the water, I am no longer a snowflake tumbling in the air. I am, for the first time, in charge of my life. But there are still some constants in my life, which give me a sense a stability.
So I decided to embrace the choices I have. And make the best of it. I will try and figure out various scenarios, and try to plan things ahead, so that I have a bigger picture of my "prospected" life, so I can choose better.
Choices are good. Options are even better. I can make the right decision for myself. And my friends can only help me get there, but not show me which is the right decision.

posted by Bambi @ 8:34 PM